a lump wells up
in my throat
as i hear those awful
awful words...

i know they are coming
been coming on for a while
and yet still
i remember...

the way you looked
that very first time
that i saw you
so many moons ago...

your eyes spoke volumes
as you said hello
and shook my hand
so tender and warm...

i knew it then
i wanted to swim in you
and journey the many depths
of your very being...

and those early nights
when we'd talk...joke...kiss
losing track of all time,
space and reality...

i knew that in you
i could find the comfort
to breath and live
and grow...

that smile those sweet lips
it was all i could do
not to grab them with mine
and pull you in closer...

and we grew
became so much more
than two souls asunder
it then all made sense...

the fates were alive
and watching out for us
making the connection
that had to happen...

a soul mate
a life mate
a reason to love
my reason to live...

but alas we just can't
put love in a bubble
and keep it fresh and new
and crisp for all time...

lifes makes you jaded
and suspicious
and forgetful
and hungry...

we all must be fed
and watered so our stems
can grow up high
and intertwine...

that didn't quite happen, did it?
i can't pinpoint the moment
the second it faded
but it did...

and here we are
older and...wiser?
and you're sad
and you speak...

a few short words
simple ones at that
just spit them out
let the bullets ring...

"it's over."
i knew it
and i gasp for air
and i try to speak...

but words escape me
but tears are abundant
and i look at your eyes
so desperate to find you...

but you're not really there
anymore...are you?
but i do still love you
wherever you are...

and i truly know
you need to move on
but we both do
i don't think i can

i fall to the floor
in a pool of my tears
my heart aching
ripped square from my chest...

it beats before my eyes
on the bloody floor
as i watch your shoes turn round
and walk away...

alone in my silence
i sit in my corner
maybe some day
i'll dream again...