I stand before your rugged cross
The weight of sin upon my back
And as I start to lay it down
My worldly clutter, I unpack
Sorry for the way I've been

We stumble blindly in this life
Not knowing what we're for
Wondering what our purpose is
Striving even more

Fear is the key
That locks our heart
Against the word of God
It's keeper is the devil
Who wants to prise apart
That special bond

Cowering in the shadows
You're waiting for your dues
You have truly oversinned
You've really lit the fuse
Like a cat your lives are spent
Redemption is no more

God is the fertilizer
On the seeds that we sow
He nurtures conditions
In which they will grow
We may be a part
Of a life changing act
And we will not know

Your life's beset with worrying
About the endless queue
Of things that just don't turn out right
Especially for you
Do you feel you're got at

What are you trying to hide from His eyes
Do you think that He can't see
The sinful procession of things you do
The other life that you can't flee

Corruptions hidden by it’s sheen
Always there, but never seen
Attraction mesmerizing saints
The devils hue, upon them paints

I guess I'm on the horse again
Unsure of where it goes
I've given up the reins to Him
The only One who knows
For I can ride a mile or two
Before I've lost my way

When I survey the wasted time
I spend apart from You
I tend to panic inwardly
My walk is far from true
So turn me into someone who

No matter what you're going through
However bad it seems
There is someone listening
To all your rants and screams
Maybe you've forgotten
That He is standing by

Just because we're Christians
It doesn't always follow
That we will always hit the peaks
And not fall in the hollows
For life is there to trip us up

I met a man a while ago
I never will forget
He said I had a problem
That had not arrived, quite yet
I'm okay, I told him
I've managed up to now

The desert has appeared again
A learning journey,I must make
With this weight upon my soul
Death to self,I do partake
For I have branches that are dead

Years of being normal has taken its toll,
You're mind is in pieces,its not fair at all,
Is there an answer to all of this pain,
Or will it stay with you,forever remain?