Unrequited

Another day passed,
And your absence remain,
I worry in every moment,
In every hour time gives,

Lost in wonder of your every thought,
Your every feeling and emotions,

Dying with each painful breath,
Suffocating from,
This distance between us,

Dreams of you coming to me,
Grow stronger each night,
Your touch, your smile,
Your presence alone,
Serves enough strength for me,
To cross the vast ocean between us,

But at night I too am afraid,
To lay my head and let you come,
For when my dreams are at an end,
I lay awake without you with me,
Afraid to face reality once more,

Unconditional is what I feel,
For you, my one true love,

Each day I wait,
For the moment to come,
That you and me would be in each others arms,
A moment I would so long live to have,
A moment I would give my everything for,

But deep thoughts linger my mind,
When your absence takes too long,
Doubt and fear take over,
Intense feelings of negativity clouding every might,
Rush of unstable emotions,
Which I cannot seem to control

I fear so strongly,
That another soul will make you happy,
That another is there with you,
To give what I cannot,

I am consumed with filthy emotions,
Of jealousy and disgust,

Forgive me my love,
I should put trust in your every word,
Forgive me my love,
For doubting your absence,
Forgive me my love,
I am simply not strong enough,

Another day is beginning,
Fear is again present,
Anticipating you are not there,
And that I, will be alone again,

Pain I can no longer endure,
I beg you to take away from,
Pain I can no longer surmount,
Weakens my very being,

Tomorrow when I awake,
Will you now be there my love?
Or will you choose and continue,
To dissipate from a world we both created?