Lost without you
I sit in silence
Alone
No reason
For much more
Than to exist each day
Going through motions
With no reward
No peace
No security
No sanctuary
No rest

What must I say
What can I do
How much must I endure
For you to know
My heart is true
That the only one
In this life
I’ll ever want
And need
Is you

Some are given many gifts in life
Although they may not deserve
Others
Receive little
They learn to know happiness
Through being needed
By being there for others
Through understanding
And giving
To fill the void

And so now
Each night
I toss and turn
A pillow to hold
That does not reach
To hold my hand
Does not kiss my forehead
Doesn’t hold me
Wearing your shirts
Left behind
That have your scent
Exhausted
Each day
I wake
Alone
To morning light
That stings my eyes
Swollen and red
Sheets stained with tears
A heavy heart
That aches
Without much reason
To move
Body tired
From nightmares
And little sleep

The joy in my heart
Gone
My smile
Lost
Laughter
Silenced
The only love
I’ve known
My dearest friend
Gone

Days
Weeks
Months
And years
I’ve built my life around
You
In hopes that one day
We’d find a way

Picking up broken pieces
As they’ve fallen
Always returning
Always giving
Always waiting
Always forgiving
Only to watch you
Walk away again
Each time
That we get close

Most would give up
But I have not
For hope is all that I have
Dreams that you gave me
And then took away
Without hope
Without you
I am lost
Broken
And alone