When I say I miss you,
It means so many things.
With words I don’t know how to say,
I poor out my heart to you.
The way I wish I could wake up to your smile,
Could cry safely in your arms
Knowing you would wipe the tears from my eyes.
Every day I wish I could forget the past,
Wish you had realized so long ago
That which took you a lifetime to see,
That which I saw and felt all along.
Every day I cry because I love you,
Die because all I want to do is make you mine.
Ah why, my love, must I be without you?
Yet I feel time apart is the only way,
The only way to know for sure.
Your heart misled you once before,
It crushed my will to live with my own love.
One mistake may crush me forever.
All the same, with or without you
I feel as if I’m going against all I believe.
Morals, truth, beauty, pain, trust
Are all slowly working their way to the surface,
Pulling at my brain, ripping it to pieces.
The choice must be made,
And either way I fear I’ll lose,
End up so completely lost,
With my heart burned to the core.
For some it’s as easy as I love you,
And I wish it were the same with us.
I wish I could laugh with you,
That you would never let me go.
I so desperately need you,
Need you to be my guardian,
But you are always so far.
God I pray we’ll find our way back to each other,
Back to the love I knew could be so much,
Find our way to this is for real,
Find our way to forever and ever.
Please find me.