life sucks
its all really muck
i pray to god everyday
that every day will be a good day
i pray that people start to treat me fairly
yet this treatment comes rarely and barely
i pray that my heartaches to be accepted by my grandpa come fulfilled
but everyday he finds a way for me to feel unskilled and burdens me with guild
i pray and ask to stop being compared to my cousins
of whom there are dozens
for my family and grandpa never lived with them for a year
so how can they compare my lifestyle habits to the ones they observed in a mere day
i pray to be wanted in the company of other family
but my prayers for that have gone awry
i pray that people see the good things i do, cause all they see is the bad things i done
its not fair, other people done it but it is i who gets punished and gets outdone
i pray to keep the strength to love everyone and keep as busy as a bee
but what i do when everyone starts to piss me off with their nonchalance about me
i feel so unloved, unaccepted.. like the black sheeep of the family
no matter what i do, how i wear my hair, how i dress, i shall never be treasured or cherished
im only good for the chores that are left for me to do, enough said
im probably a burden to be fed and im prob. as good as dead