A Bleak Smile

Insoluble words dripping with heartfelt empathy, slide
slipping across, slipping, but not staying

I had that premonition, i could recognize
just how pretentious it all seemed, but knowing me..

ahh, fuck it, i look back and think what did i really lose?
cuz i didnt really gain anything in first place but a delayed noose.

heavy? it is again, only this time, im in position.
so at least that, i mean, at least im on track right?

poison? those ideas course through my thoughts,
and though i hurt inside, i laugh alot

facade? no no i would say its more like convincing myself,
cuz no ones knows me better than i, so i have to encourage myself

I dont feel the divide, not like i felt it before,
just a lot of satire... alot of asides