They say college changes you
And I never really understood how
But as I sit here all alone in my room
It all seems so clear to me now

Right now all I feel is useless
Like nothing I do is ever good enough
Trying to fake a smile all the time
Can get pretty tough

I walk around like a zombie
Each day looking the same in black and white
It’s like I am slowly passing each day
And barely passing each night

The person I see in front of me
Is defiantly not the girl I used to know
But I try so hard to look strong
And I do a damn good job of not letting the pain show

I walk around with a smile
Laughing and pretending like I am okay
But deep down I’m slowly dying
Secretly wondering how to make it through the day

It’s like I woke up one day and realized
I changed into the kind of person I never thought I would be
I do things that I know are wrong
Wondering how that girl could be me

I’m surrounded by people
Who all say they care so much
But nothing they say or do
Will ever compare to the feeling of your touch

I know the difference between right and wrong
But somehow I just push that aside
As I crawl into bed beside you
I want nothing more than just to hide

I want to hide there in that moment
And let you hold me all night long
As I wonder how something that feels so right
Could be so completely wrong

Cause you have someone that loves you
Someone that trusts you to be true
If she could only see you now
What do you think she would do?

Do you think she would tell you
That everything is okay
To keep on kissing me softly
As she continues on with her day

She would scream and yell and cry
As she has every right to do
She would call you a cheater, a liar, and a whore
And I’m sure she could think of a few for me too

She would think that I am trying
To steal you and keep you as my own
Or maybe just as a game
Cause I was tired of being alone

But what I’m sure she wouldn’t realize
Is that somehow I fell for you
In the midst of the lies
I found something so pure and true

I’m sure she wouldn’t understand
That this is so much more than a crush
That every day I fall more in love with you
And am powerless against your touch

I would hope she knew that I wasn’t proud
That I would hate me too
But the truth is that when you whisper “I love you”
There is nothing I wouldn’t do