Will I Miss Me When I'm Gone?
Will I miss me when I’m gone?
The memories of people who’ve gone before.
The thoughts of those who’ll be left behind.
Will I be remembered when I’m gone?
The pain and sorrow of living.
The love and friendship of others.
Will I need them when I’m gone?
The disappointment I’ve been to others.
The disappointment I’ve been to me.
Will it matter when I’m gone?
The tears and pain that make up the minutes of each day.
The regrets and missteps that make up my life.
Will I let them go when I’m gone?
The people who know me,
The few who cared,
Those who loved me,
Will they forgive me when I’m gone?
The pain feels so fresh, like I’d never left it.
The time since I’ve felt it wasn’t long enough.
Will I leave it behind when I’m gone?
This life I’ve lived is so tiring, so useless, so pathetic.
The gift I was given was wasted and unused.
I hope I don’t miss me when I’m gone.
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Will You Miss Me When I Am Gone
joseph l. gause
Suicidejoker:
This is no joke .
I went to University of Florida 63-65, rooming with a brilliant math major,
who, in our moments of beer drinking leisure, sometimes talked of ending
his life. I said: Walter, what in the Hell are you talking about?!-You have
your life ahead of you--you are good at what you do--there are people
who love you--Don't bug out man (or lady) Joe G
Yeah, don't commit suicide,
Yeah, don't commit suicide, write more poetry instead. I liked it.
Your focus
Emotions joy and sorrow, are icing on the cake.
So intense can they be, we forget what we bake.
A self fulfilling prophecy, those intense emotions,
Create a counterfeit world of false and fake notions.
See our lives genuine, practice in a fashion,
To live life truly, view it with dispassion.
This is not life of coldness, without any soul,
This brings out the hidden, the deeper whole.
Put life in balance, but focus on the cake,
Experience the icing but celebrate the cake.
PS Take the pain experience it but after a while it's time to put it away like worn out bicycle, and focus on what is NOW or make a new NOW for yourself.
Poem
I think you might have mistaken that I was contemplating suicide based on my name.
I've gone by this name since the early nineties when I was in the army. No doubt at
some points early in my life I did contemplate that very thing, but it wasn't the case
when I wrote this. Thank you for all your concern though and I do appreciate the
responses and reads.
This poem doesn't have to apply solely to the end of someone's entire life and how
they had lived it, but I think it can also apply to drastic changes in your life and how
this stage of your life is ending and the thoughts you are having as you move forward
on to new things by revisiting this period while saying goodbye.
Suicide Joker's Mindset
joseph l. gause
Suicide Joker:
I am vastly relieved to learn you are moving on to other avenues in your life.
You are an Army vet; I am an Air Force vet. Please keep moving toward the positive;
keep writing! I wish the best--Joe
Sigh of relief
now I can sleep.