I dont wanna go,
I dont wanna know,
why dont i feel so good,
when im so alone?

I can see me falling,
and I can trip and stumble on the way down,
no stopping it now,
break my heart wow,

I cant describe my feeling of loneliness,
a bottomless black pit of nothing but me,
Sing me a beautiful melody of piano keys,
Something just for me,

The cops pounding on my door wakes me,
Their voices sing words of power as i gather my things,
They watch as I hurry,
picking up things i should leave, stupid things,

I wanna stand in your arms,
just breathe and be,
Feel the warmth of your neck,
The solid of your arms,
around me wont break,

Can we stop,
stand close together,
forget everything,

I love you,
I hate you,
you scare me,
and fulfill me,
I want you,
I crave you,
you anger me,
and amuse me,
I need you,
I breathe you,
You dominate me,
and murder me,
I sing you,

Josh you had beautiful eyes,
Hair darker then my shadows,
Seemed fallen,
when you looked at me,
I felt true desire,
You lied over and over,
hiden under cover

Matt you were athletic,

Your kisses too soft,
your touches to careful,
I dont understand,
theres no desire?

you whisper softly,
gently take my hand,
hold too tightly,
your scareing me,

I cant control this,

ive twisted my hair in knots again,
im gonna take the harder road,
dont you dare peg me as a type,
ive heard all about your hype,

Youre rotten eyes are unseeing,

Angry purple, blue bruises kiss my hips.
Black bruises touch and claim my thighs.
My breasts are sore, slightly pink from your punches,
Is it time?

Scratches, dried blood cake my stomach,

As I lay dying,
Whisper me the truths,
My heart is breaking,
Soul caving,

I tried to be happy,
But every night they came,
Pulled my saddness out from under me,
Theres no where to go,

Were sitting still,
touching each other,
what if someone looks?
were in a theatre,

Our breathing too fast,
not watching the movie,
your touching me,
where is your girlfriend?

i saw an angel fly over head,
winced at what i saw,
its beauty unimaginable,
its brilliance questioning,

when i saw this angel fly over me,
i heard the heavens clap and roar,

I’m such a liar,
Describing my words of passion as truth,
Experiences I’ve only wondered,
Sharing my desires,

I’m fake and deceiving,
Never have feeling,
Never been touched,

Run your words over my body,
Erotically granting me loudly,

You are honey dipped, cinnamon glazed,
Chocolate drizzled, and peppermint flaked,

You taste like sound,
And smell like seeing,

You asked me to try and be happy,
To smile and laugh,
So I did politely,

Stop crying, you murmured every night,
Wiping my tears away,
You always held me so tight,