The Novel is on hold for a little bit... But I have made some good progress... It's a twist about a serial killer but it has a lot of satire in it. Thanks to Bin Laden, Fanny Mae and Freddie Mac, The CEO's like the one at Home Depot that lost millions of Dollars for the Share holders but got a $80 million parachute, The Lear jet flying auto industry executives that threatened to file bankruptcy because they were too ignorant to make electric cars 30 years ago and were possibly receiving kick backs from the oil industry greedy bastards, AIG because they drove the price of gas up to $4.00 a gallon by continuously out bidding everyone on future oil commodities, World Com, AOL, Enron and Kenneth Ley, Bernie Madoff, Congress, NANCY PELOSI an her tenacious support of mostly gang infested illegal aliens and rewarding them and others for having children that they can't afford to support, Gangs and other criminals that drive up the cost of everything and have us Hard working tax payers paying outrageous taxes trying to catch, house them in jail, prosecute them, deter them with expensive security items that don't deter them much... Russia and North Korea that want to end the world by selling nuclear arms and or supplies to manufacture them, to terrorists and force us to spend billions of dollars and human lives to try and stop them... I can go on... But thanks to all of them... I now have to work about 16 hours a day 7 days a week, to feed my face... They are in essence stealing my life (EVERYBONE'S) and not allowing me to read or write poems as much as I would like to!

Are you still laughing? LOL :)

Ray AKA Yobarney

I think it feels good to Wanda that you have these feelings and probably, even tho she doesn't feel the same, has still been drawn to you because of this, I don't think she fully understands how hard it can be for a guy in your position... When I met Kristi my father was dying, I had no time for any one else in my life, it just happened. I don't really believe in love at first sight, the first time I glanced at her I turned away, I could feel it inside, the second time I didn't turn away and it was over, she was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. We hit it off but, of course there was another guy and I lost out. It happens, but she lied to me about it, so I at first believed her and started thinking something was wrong with me. It slowly brought me down to nothing. I am an only child, my father only had me, and I found myself trying to deal with this and help him too. I still have things I want to accomplish in life, I will never, and I mean never let someone have that much power over me again. And the same has happened to me too, I have lost my inspiration to write, and I miss it. But I don't miss drinking til I pass out hoping I don't wake up. Kristi had many chances to tell me the truth, hell I did it for her, I walked away one time and told her I knew I was just in the way for what she really wanted, I did it in an email and told her she could keep the beach money, and I wished her the best. In the middle of the night she leaves messages on my phone saying how could I do this? how could I leave her right now? So I changed my mind and we talked about it... this guy, she said, she would not date if he was the last guy on earth... well it turned out that that was not true... I am open with all this cause I never want to forget how gullible I was. Any way Wanda is not Kristi, every situation can be different. Kristi played me, that is just the way it is, never again, I am in control now, it is my life, I make the rules. Hum... this almost is inspiring another write,lol... it may seem a bit jaded, but this bitterness keeps me on track to accomplish the other goals I still have. And I have plenty of friends so life is ok. It is nice to hear from you again, I know things in the end will work out for you, take care-Lee