FigHtiNg MySelF
A feeling of hopelessness,
lingers through the air.
A feeling I know all to well,
wallowing in my despair.
A certain uncertainty,which
I count on without a doubt.
No one really knows,or even
cares what I'm talking about.
Wanting life as it should be,
yet still living it as it is.
A life once full of promise,has
now been reduced to this.
Thoughts of crossing lines,
from which there's no return.
At war with self-respect,will
it ever be rightfully earned?
Fighting for my freedom,from
a some what tainted past.
Seemingly there's no escaping,
yesterdays firmly held grasp.
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Being too hard on yourself?
I feel like saying you should write what you feel, you know, get it off your chest, but on the other hand I feel like saying don't be so hard on yourself. Don't you have kids? You don't have to be perfect to be perfect in their eyes and is that not what really matters? The past is the past, learn from it, yes, live in it, no. But I understand your feelings, I wish I could go back in time and do some things differently,take care-Lee
hey Lee
I'm not living in it,I have learned from it but I've lived a certain way for a long time now and its made my moving forward that much more difficult..I know ill get past it but at the moment it seems a lost cause..its all in my head I know but it feels real,you know?my kids I love to death and I know they love me,I just wish I would've done some things differently.my life and ultimately thiers could've been that much better..I feel like I'm starting from scratch when I should've been at a certain point in my life already..its going to be hard,shit it is hard,but I'm determined Lee to get it done.guess I just have to maintain that outlook and it'll work out..thanks for the read and comment..you already know,its well apreciated.
Ricklovin
Heart felt
A very heart felt poem Rick, but you know things do work out ok in the end, and just have to wait it will happen for you one huge hugg for you from Willow.
thanks willow
I hope it does work out,I'm trying hard to make it happen.you're so sweet,thanks for the hug willow.
Ricklovin
Life is what it is... a life
Life is what it is... a life of uncertainty. Good write.
true
Guess if we knew what was coming,life would be really dull huh lol..thanks for reading moody.
Ricklovin
keep fighting, man
Life is a struggle, that's for sure. You just gotta keep fighting at it. Don't let the past drag you down, Rick.
yeah it is
I'm trying neo,I'm trying..thanks for the read dude.
Ricklovin
free your thoughts of suicide
Joseph Anthony
There's a bridge , here's a bridge
Looking down, it's so profound
You know you won't be found
Here's a case, it's not a race
You must set a pace, here's a bridge
It's not disgrace, you can save face
You can save a face, it was mine
but now it's yours
You can land on all fours
Here's a bridge you can cross
and you will not be lost.
Copyright 2008 by Joseph Anthony Sanchez
nice poem
But I'm not having thoughts of suicide,I have kids to think about...by the way,when I started reading your comment...I thought you were trying to tell me to jump off the bridge lol..thanks for the read and for commenting.
Ricklovin
Levity
Joseph Anthony Sanchez
LMAO
The best
Undoubtedly the best poem I've read here for a long time. Why? It has so much depth of feeling. Brave of you to broach this delicate subject. The war within is so painful indeed. Thankfully, you have family and friends to help you pull through.
it is
And can be very painful indeed,without family im not to sure where id be right now.I'm glad you liked the poem poetmaster,thanks for the comment and read.I apreciate it.
Ricklovin
haunting and telling i feel
haunting and telling
i feel like this often
and wonder who else does
sorry to hear that
I hate feeling like this,and am sad to hear you to feel this way often..good thing you write,it helps a bunch! Thanks for reading Melissa,don't be a stranger..
Ricklovin
poem
i know this feeling well, i like the way you write, see you ken.....
i slip in and out
It comes and goes,its hard to deal with sometimes,but I got a handle on it.I think..thanks for reading and for the comment,its well apreciated.
Ricklovin