DeCePtiOn
An insomniac in love,counting
Wandas instead of sheep.
Drowning in this my love,
because it runs so deep.
Honestly loving her,isn't
enough to be her man.
See i'll never be that for her,
I'm simply her biggest fan.
One of many I've learned,and
I'm on the bottom of her list.
Never will it be,like that day on the
roof,when we shared our first kiss.
Never in my life,have I wanted
so much of ones affection.
She may not agree,but when I look
at her,I see nothing if not perfection.
What I wouldn't give,if she gazed at
me,in the same manner I do her.
How much do I wish,that it would be
me,and my love she would prefer.
I had total confidence,that
one day,she would be mine.
But its been three years,and now,
time has me feeling a bit resigned.
Mentioned in passing,that for
me she had made an exception.
So that makes me what special?or
is that only my egos perception?
Left here,facing my fear,that my love
will never receive a just reception.
I love her still,and always will,yet thinking
she had loved me was my own deception.
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Complicated!
Ah, this makes me think of just how complicated love can be. Loved the rhyme and flow.
isnt it though
Wish it could be like when you're a kid.hey wanda,want to be my girl?kool.lol..it was so simple in those days huh...thanks for reading and commenting,I apreciate it.
Ricklovin
love
Yeah, man, it's the best and worst thing ever. Sorry to hear this girl still has you hurting... Some people are just hard to forget. Good to see you around here, though, Rick.
neo my man
What's good bro? Neo I wouldn't say hurting,but man,I think of her every freaking day.by the way I read your last poem,hilarious as usual.you never disappoint.thanks for the read,laterz.
Ricklovin
very nice
Very nice! I can relate here, as I have felt the same way in regard 2 my soul mate. Although, we r still together. Good job :)
~Kolene~
thanks
Well you're very lucky,and I hope you guys always stay together..thanks for the read and the comment..
Ricklovin
Well written, Rick
In your own unmistakable style. I almost blew past it, I don't hang out here as much lately... I talked to Kristi about a month ago, first time since January, and I kind of wished I had not, I was hoping for answers to all the whys I had but it was the same old song and dance, It just broke my heart all over again. Unrequited love makes for the best writes, but man look at the cost it comes with. Jezz Rick I think if I had three wishes the first one would be that Kristi would fall in love with me, the second, after reading your posts, would be for Wanda to fall for you, the third would not matter anymore, I would just give it away... I am almost over Kristi, I know I am not putting up with all that mess anymore, but I am like you, I still think about her almost every day. As usual, you wrote this well, take care-Lee
hey Lee
How are you man? I myself haven't been on in about a month or so. I miss writing and wrote a couple so I figured id post em. I want to read up a bit on some of my buddies posts as well.Hey I'm sorry to hear the talk didn't go so well with kristi. But,I'm glad to hear you're almost past it. Its hard I know. Wanda and I keep in touch here and there. Sometimes I go over and hang for a bit but we both have a lot going on right now,but,she's always on my mind lol. Can't help it none. Lee thanks for the read and comment,its good to hear from you.
P.S hope all your wishes come true,especially the one you saved for me,lol later Lee
Ricklovin
by the way
I know how it is not to know the reasons why and what not. Fortunately we talked and even though it pained me,I now feel a lot better about the situation on a whole. It was hard hearing it and coming to terms,but I rather hear it than not. I'm sure you feel the same. Not to say I'm over her,clearly I'm not. But it made it a lot easier to deal with. Hope and wish you nothing but the best Lee,keep ya head up!
Ricklovin
Your so right
talking and being straight up with each other is the key... even if it is not what we want to hear. Kristi will not address anything, not specifically. Yet when I talked to her last she almost started crying, you know it was like when two people argue but later regret it type of reunion, and on top of that she was wearing a dress I bought her... What am I to believe Rick? If she is sorry for the way things went down, then she should be willing to address it, maybe I am being to tough but that is how I feel. Damn Rick, I was there for her for almost two years, look you know most of the story, I will not go any further. I am just frustrated... Hey I see you have a new post, I am gonna check it out, Thanks for the support dude, it has been a long tough ride for me, sometimes I just feel like giving up, I am so hurt over this... anyway I am hopeful for you and this situation with Wanda, I know how hard it is to come to terms with Wanda, I know its not the same but maybe there is a really good friendship that awaits you and Wanda on the other side of all this... So You keep ya head up too! Take care Rick....
well Lee
If she almost cried,she definately feels something. What that is I don't know. I don't know Kristi either,but perhaps she knows she did you dirty,and is ashamed to talk about it,or maybe she doesn't want to hurt you or,maybe it hurts her and that's why she won't talk about it. You seem like a straight up dude,and from what I know of the situation,she at least can give you that peace of mind. I know it bugged me for a long time not knowing the reasons and when we finally spoke about it,I wasn't to thrilled but at least I knew and could move on from there. And I think you're right,her and I do have something between us,and if that something is just a friendship,then that's what it is,and ill be there for her. I love her like that! Hopefully one day you guys will have that talk and it'll be what you need to fully be over it. Goodluck buddy.
Ricklovin