to live a life of paranoia
to hear everything that's said
to fear the loss of something dear
to think it's all a mistake

to live a life of desolation
to be seen but never felt
to know it'll never happen
to suceed with irking doubt

to live a life unappreciated
to have a heart forever cracked
to give but not be remembered
to have eyes longing to be read

to live a life of hatred
to never get back a heart
to not feel vestiges to love
to be imbued with feelings of the dark

to greet the world with an enigmatic smile
to engrave the word hate in blood
to live through each day playing the song of the past
with fervent hope that it'll be the last.