my existance seems so pointless, so hopeless and lonely
I know them not to be truths, no matter what they've told me
honesty must be too difficult, for your every word is laced with lies
my mind strewn with heartache, tears and my sorrowful cries
Each sentence that falls from your tongue is manipulating
every day I silently sit, painfully waiting
to trust again, to feel secure, to feel comforted and understood,
these things everyone needs, only few have, but everyone should
why does it seem that my heart has built an impenatrable wall
and my mind climbs painfully to the top, only to fall
back to the isolation below, the despair that traps my very soul
the seeping sadness that has overtaken my life and taken a toll
on my sanity and everything that makes me who you once knew
I am no longer happy in life, little things or anything I do
my mind is occupied continuously, reliving my past
thinking of times when you lied, hurt and put me last
the people in my life don't truly love me or care
it's simply more convienient for me to be there
things have to change or I cannot survive
In the dark my soul cannot possibly thrive
When I was young I thought I was meant for so much more
how can I doubt my self worth, my being, my very core?
Living this way has made me question myself
not care about consequences, the future or my health
I'm dying a little more with every breath I take
soon I'll be gone, when there is no more desire to wake
my heart withered and broken, my body a torturous cell
someday I'll be free, and in the wind is where I'll dwell,
no more pain, no more lies, no more solotude, no more sorrow
just the pleasuring thought that, at last, I won't wake up tomorrow