I like to keep my body clean, strong, and healthy
and I'll tell you another thing
I am the survival of the fittest
having had victory
over being one of the worst diagnoses
being schizoaffective

and if you don't believe me
you can take it up with my God
and I might be there too
to torment you with some plagues
after I possibly throw up
for a few days
because of psychotropic withdrawls
and let me ask you this
do you even have anything on me
like how this all started?

You can't beat my witness style
because this government doesn't even believe in spiritual things
and so as long as I keep it spiritual
I won't be found guilty
call me lawless
call me what you will
but I know how this world operates
including it's mental health

Take away my SSI
I really don't even care
and lose what good you have from me already

I'll even play ball
with you wanting to survey me
regarding how I will so fare

But don't forget
I already played your part
and you already have your file
and your studies
which every medical chart brings

I didn't malinger
or take advantage of the system either
I boasted in my infirmities
and you did what you did
based on what you believe
and what physical scientific advances
to which you adhere

I found all your weaknesses
and I will defend my life
in this American land
in which freedom and opportunity
are said to exist
and be more than near

Paul hadn't mastered letting go of the past
in Philippians
there are countless examples
of him constantly bringing up his evil past and failures
even when he boasted in the flesh

But this I have mastered:
(even more than those who were the firstfruits)
it's a gift from God
it's hidden
and I don't have to share