I watched a film called life through an open window
It wasn’t long until the credits started to roll

I was snatched away lost lost in the unreal
10 years 10 years since the day she got so ill,

Demon’s pulling at my soul now it’s scarred and ripped apart
A life sentence I’ve been charged with for guilt within my heart

When you showed me your arm a part of me died inside
Ran upstairs drowned in drugs no escape nowhere to hide

I self destruct I can’t stay calm it’s so hard with you gone
I lose control the rage ferocious suffocates my soul

There’s no cure for the pain I’ve searched for countless days
Look for sunshine beyond the clouds every time I pray

You said you didn’t want to leave mum I need you come back please
Now my biggest regret is going outside for that cigarette

I still haven’t said goodbye a constant pain from deep inside
I can’t take it any more I want to knock down heaven’s door

I just want to hear your voice tell me everything’s alright
I want to go back to life when it wasn’t a constant fight

When I had my family here when you left they disappeared
I’m so cold this is the first time I’ve cried in 10 years

When I’m down don’t frown its just life doing the rounds
I finally found my voice finally made the right choice

I’m fighting surviving I’m far from giving up
I feel you in my corner guiding me from disrupt

Chorus
I’ve been trying to think of a chorus for this song
Trying to put into words why I feel so numb
Why for the past ten years I’ve been on the run
But it’s just a song about a son missing his mum

Mum before you it was Nathan another lost relation
I saw dad after that call lying broken on the floor

I never got to know my brother Anna says I have his manor
I have trouble coming to terms the family portrait’s cracked and burned

So cold so alone feels impossible to go on
I feel so weak a pain so deep it echo’s

What makes my head spin round while my heart stands still?
Its 10 years overdue but I love you too

I should have said it that day you said you didn’t want to leave me
Instead I ran away I’m so sorry please forgive me…

I couldn’t handle things I was only sixteen
So young so confused my mum taken away from me

I try to take it easy but it feels like World War three
The past 10 years are blurry full of fury

They say everything that happens happens for a reason
But everything that happened happened to one in a billion

This song’s my Everest I had to get it off my chest
Had to lay it all to rest find a place of peacefulness

Find some happiness I’m so sick of sadness and stress
When I write I feel the hate drifting out my life

If only for a moment a weights lifted off my shoulders
I’m going stop asking because I can’t find the answers

I guess life can cut deep and tear souls apart
Memories forever live eternally burning in my heart