I was born a girl
that fact has already burdened my life
It wasn't definite
I wasn't sure if it was what it was
I wish I could peel off my skin
I thought you loved me
how naive!
STOP! STOP! NO! NO! NOOOOOOOO!
which part was unclear?
I long to be shot like a wounded deer put out of my misery
There is nothing safe
eyes knocking you down
taking what they felt was theirs
shamed into silence
SCRAPING
BITING
SCREAMING
helplessly I pleaded
and then when my mouth was covered
my eyes screamed out for mercy
for death
My heart feels like a bird
shot down by Saturn's arrow
This pile of falling bloody feathers
I am a raw wound
my body striving for escape from the sores & bruises
I shaved every place he had been
BEATEN
AMBUSHED
BELITTLED
I was his prey
He's FREE
while I'm trapped suffering in
the cozy cruelty of silence