Blood rushing, I woke with my heart in pain,
Everything I worked to conquer has found me once again,
It surrounded me just like the air,
Demons have no pity on a heart in despair,
With all my faith in karma betrayed,
Every friend I’ve known has strayed,
And here I am once again,
With myself as my only friend,
But there’s only so much self support to give,
When I’ve failed to see a reason to live,
Constantly feeling punished for nothing,
But I can still feel so at least that’s something,
All the things I’ve worked so hard for seem so pointless,
All I ask is that the pain is put to rest,
Expectations are always so empty,
No matter how many of life’s dues you pay, nothing is ever free,
Tripping, I fell upon the clouds that were the floor of my desires,
Heaven, the only thing that could ever get me higher,
A strangers’ foot had greeted my head as I looked up to see,
Life flashing before my eyes, I looked up to see what seemed to be me,
The scrapes had all gone numb as the tears found their places upon my cheek,
Suddenly I realized that there’s no such thing as the heaven we seek,
I closed my eyes for just seconds, hoping to gather my thoughts,
Feeling failed and disappointed, betrayed by the hope I once had bought,
As I looked back in the light to see nothing but darkness,
It became perfectly clear that there is nothing more then this,
So I started to scream in panic until someone grabbed my hand,
An angel as white as cocaine, crying as if she could understand,
Realizing that I’m not the only one who “God” has ever let down,
My soul began to overdose, as my veins turned hard like stone,
So this is why our skies cry, drowning the world in pain,
Why it’s impossible to find the line between normal and insane,
Why it is I always feel abandoned, why I always feel alone,
Because no matter how much faith one can have, we all know there’s no where else to go.