No-one will ever no what i feel
The pain i hid behind my smile
The laughter that hides my tears
The words of encouragement that i wisper to my child
That i cant tell myself
I created a new me to survive
One that is new
Someone that i can hide behind
Strong and loving
I can handle anything the new me cries
I have to handle everything or my new me dies
I only know how to be my new me now
To scared to live as the me that lived before
Scared that the new me cannot cope with my old me
So i shut the door
The old me cant live anymore
I choose to live another way
So when i smile i hide my pain
When i laugh i can hide my tears
So no-one will ever know how i feel
I dont want to know how i really feel
I am scared to face the old me
Every so often i feel pain tugging at my heart
I know its the old me trying to get me to feel what is real
I refuse to, i cry and i hide
It hurts and it scares me the life i lived before
So i beg the new me please shut that door