Betrayal

Im sitting here in the bathroom crying
head buried in my hands worrying
how do I face you, how do I tell you
you really don’t have a clue
I have betrayed you in the worst possible way
put to shame our life and love
“Please forgive me”, I tell the lord above

But the prayers don’t ease my pain
I know that they add no gain
I have to face you eventually
sob and kneel before you mournfully
I’m sitting here on the toilet seat crying
I look up and stare at my wedding ring
I have messed up and there is no turning back
I’ve been a fool, a total jerk

When I walk out of the bathroom to face you
I will face my destiny that is true
as I face you in confession
In utter and total submission
I know the look in your face will kill me
and no, the truth will not set us free
everything you held scared will be challenged
the very core of your soul will be damaged