The feelings I keep inside are hatred and
pain,
The taunting voices in my head drive me
insane,
I try my hardest but that's not enough,
Dealing with this shit is so fucking tough,
Harsh words and violent blows,
Hidden secrets nobody knows,
Eyes are open hands are fisted,
Deep inside I'm dark and twisted,
Burnt out wasted empty and hollow,
Today's just yesterdays tomorrow,
Put the gun to my head,
I'll be happy once I'm dead,
No more pain no more lies,
Fuck this shit everyone dies.
So I'm looking at life from a different
perspective,
My demon within gotta feel its objective,
I stare at the mirror but I hate the
reflection,
Coz my blood I'd filled with poison like a
lethal injection,
So I don't know what to do my mind state
is in two,
My fate seem sealed for what the hell I've
been through,
Just tryna make it in the world without a
clue,
Till death calls me one day then I might
take that queue,
Coz everyday is the same it erodes my
mentality,
Got my going insane plotting my own
fatality,
I opened my eyes then I saw the real
reality,
Fuck it I'll just become another causality,
Coz I try to do good but all I see is red,
My suicidal thoughts got the best of my
head,
Get myself a gun live life on the edge,
Till that shit goes off and I go over the
ledge,
I'm depressed by this great recession,
All this shit has got me second guessing,
Fuck the Golden opportunity.
Fuck you and your mutiny,
Think for a second before you dispute
with me,
You need to feel this pain bleed this blood,
Die and never come back and get thrown
in the mud,
I don't drink to ignore what people say,
I drink coz were all gonna die someday,
I got problems that can't be solved,
The foundation to my strength is starting
to dissolve,
All I'm lacking is the straight jacket and
meds,
Do you think any of us are right in our
heads,
I can't sleep without yanks under my bed.
Something's changed my natural balance
and flow,
My demons within are taking ultimate
control,
My life I'd drowning into a gaping black
hole,
My demons within eat my hate filled soul.