Every day i live, everyday i think, everyday im me. Everyday i think of what goes on around the earth. I think of what i want to do when i grow up, maybe a culinary arts teacher, or an astronomer, or maybe even working with kids, but this is only in my head. Everyday i live my life in hell, trying not to do the stupid things i did. I try not to think about suicide but when i get mad or upset thats the firts thing that comes to my mind. Maybe i will get the guts to pick up the loaded gun and put it to my head and finally end my pain. Im 17 and my life sucks parents dont care no friends no family people diying all the time WHAT AM I DOING HERE ON EARTH i dont understand i have no one for me hate my life