I can sit for hours at the oceanside
watching the waves crashing onto the shore,
for it mirrors the way I feel inside
with turmoil slamming my heart forevermore

resisting the urge to run into the tide
to feel my body and the waves become one,
then to be slammed to the sand
and pulled back again without a chance to run

to forget about the pain I feel within
and focus on my not being dragged out to sea,
to feel that I have some kind of power
in the endless battle to control my own destiny

but if I did let the water engulf me
and surrendered myself to its majestic might,
would I even want to save myself
or would I choose to yield and give up the fight?