Yesterday, i shaved off a few hours
from my day
just to BE.

it was the hardest decision
i now found in retrospect,
for this self was enmeshed
with DOING.

i did not know where to start
(though i know how i want it to end)
still i lingered,
and i fell into a limbo.

in trying to save myself
i hid in a book
i read till there were
no words left.

but my heart kept wandering
to a Protagonist other
than the one i just met.

i have no control about things
for things, people, time and space
are not mine to reign,
that belongs entirely to Him-
His sole domain.

Even the bowing of knees
and the quickening of hearts
in answer to Him,
these, too, are His.