how much more

I was bored last night so I cut myself
It hurt! but in a pleasant sort of way
when I opened my eyes this morning
the darkness had gone away.

I will cut myself again tomorrow
to see if my theory is right
that the pain and suffering it brings me
is the reason for the shining light.

If it is I will highly recommend it
to my friends inside the dorm
and perhaps if we do it together
it will lead to some reform.

The matron may grant us a pardon
and stop all the beatings by guards
and once more we may sit in the garden
instead of being tied in the yards.

Still; not long now to the finals
When the oldest are let free to roam
I wonder some times if I'll make it
if ever I'll have my own home...