i am in this place in this place where all can see
death slowly becomes you and me
i am in this place where i belong
yet knowing that i am always wrong
and i soon become one with what i feel
turn my heart into steel
evolve and become something more
book is read and common lore
this thing we seek but cannot find
a mere 2 seconds peace of mind
try to learn and i will know then
when shall i see day again

Here are all my angels on my shoulder
then i feel my hear grow colder
other things deep inside me saying
that i ought to get to praying
this is who i am and i have not changed
no matter if you think that i am deranged
you still know i will see the eternal light
even in the loneliest and darkest night
when will i be able to rest in pieces?
only when my darkness ceases

when will this all end and i can return home
to face my fears, but not alone
my face is streaked with tones of red
always screaming what cant be said
and all i can say is that it is lonely here
haunted by the thoughts of a thousand years
never again will i find such a perfect home
broken fingers broken bones
taught myself to love long ago
and even when you might know
destroy the mirrors and lie alone

once again i am partially complete
searing flesh and burning heat
and i know that there is so much more
hot and cold down on the floor
there has to be more to life than this
something to tell me that i exist
waiting for another hit
tired of all the same old shit
how i hate what i have become
when i am always so numb

all i can think of is love for you
but i know you're happiest alone
until then feel right at home
farewell to the darkened skies
you always ask how and never ask why
farewell to the starless night
and just when you think you might
you might want to think again
tortured enemies can become friends

always hold them close my son
look inside see what you've become
you still know we are all the same
broken promises with the deepest shame
one more laugh to kill the hate
throw your head back and this is great
blood red hands that i cant clean
burn them good with kerosene
and my madness lingers on