like the sudden surge of a new storm
the old -isms, thought dead and buried
begin to show again and demand attention.
the pendulum swing once again intensifies

the synapse connections so long controlled
start firing like arcade contestants shooting out stars
targeting obsessions, triggering depressions
fearing! isolating! wanting!

old behaviors, so long ignored, return
slip in as easily as conversations between old friends
familiar feelings of comfort from resent and anger,
justify, and signal retreat in the fight for control

how easy it is to fall back into these old habits
looking for feelings from outside sources
comparing, not sharing, putting up walls!
hard to remember, balance is where it’s always found
jc