Did I leave a bad taste in your mouth,
Like some dog poo on your shoe?
Did I leave an impression
That just wasn't good enough for you?
Was my reputation
Something you just couldn't risk?
Was it too much pressure
Even though it was my wish?
Maybe if I changed my name,
Maybe if I changed my personality,
Maybe if I changed myself completely,
But that wouldn't be me,
It would be like trying to dress the sun up as the rain,
It wouldn't have worked
You said,
It would have caused you too much shame.
You're ashamed to know your family?
You're willing to deny my existence
Just because of the neighbours twitching curtains
You're willing to put up a pretence?
You're a hypocrite,
A first class twit,
You're someone I wish I didn't know
Someone so full of it,
You won't give me a chance,
You say I'm mucked up too many times,
Even I know that's true,
But if you don't believe in me,
Then who else will?
It was all down to you,
But you've made your feelings clear,
Crystal in fact,
On me you're willing to turn your back,
So long as you don't get involved,
So long as you don't get asked,
So long as you wash your hands of me,
As I watch you shove me away fast,
Because I know I'm not perfect,
The devil himself is more of a saint than me,
But I wish you'd judge me on how I am now,
Not because of my past,
Now I truly know what you think of me
And that with you I'll never come first
Only last.