Starlight Tears
What if your life's a lie
what if you're all dried up inside
so much so that you can't even cry?
Walk and walk and walk some more
up and down streets, wondering what's going on
behind every closed door.
People's lives, living and laughing
giving and sharing, loving and caring
problems out in the open
worries therefore halving.
Stars break above
I watched the first one appear,
I watched them fade away too
one by one as they disappear
no more tears left to cry
a thousand of my droplets kept etched in the sky.
I wish upon them every night
wishes and wishes being blown out like a light
until they're out of my mind
out of my sight,
nothing left for me to hold onto
nothing left for me to fight.
Out there a vast empty space
just like what people see when they look at my face
I put it on each morning
so they can't see,
can't see the pain
can't see the worry
can't see the ache.
Sometimes you've got to.....
disguise yourself for others' sake,
put your own feelings aside and be there
a rock
which can withstand an earthquake.
Letting out love
it's hard,
letting in love
even harder,
saying the right things so often
they ring round hollow,
always looking on the bright side
always hoping, always saying
there's still tomorrow.
Convincing others but not yourself,
trying to believe
faith a fading beacon
I don't want it to leave,
because I know once it's gone
it'll be the one thing I need.
Shadows whisper, ears rattle
skeletons tumble out of cupboards
I hear the tittle-tattle
I hear the sniping and biting
as one by one they fall,
I hear a voice
but it's not the one I want
even though I call and call.
I sense the warmth, I feel the cold
glimpsing family reunions through windows
smiles and hugs
full of love
they all have someone to hold.
Memories sharp and bitter
why do you always remember the bad?
Remember that heavy feeling
a dead weight,
dragging you into the ground
draining you into silence
until sometimes
it's just too late,
what's the difference
if all the time you pretend
and let people see someone who's fake?
A forlorn, tired acceptance
wanting something you can never have,
as sure as you can be of never having it
so long as the sun sets at the end of every day,
I simply turn and walk away.....
See my tears light up the sky
for now and ever
no more can I cry.
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Jewel, jewel, jewel
aw, sweetheart i feel for you. I know too. ive been there....many times...but the older i get the more i see we are all in the same boat.
You jewel will never lose your faith. Look how you are with us when we are all down in the dumps. you brighten our days... You are really smart. You have a good head on your shoulders.
You will get through these feelings...believe me...
LIFE...
xoxo
lots of hugs to you!!!
Linda
Linda
I was feeling really down when I wrote this, nothing could seem to pick me up - but I got there somehow, I don't know how, but I did - writing about it helps enormously, it's bliss when my feelings are "out" so to speak, and when you, all my friends and talented poets put a smile on my face like you are doing now, I feel amazing! thanks so much Linda, biiiiiig hugs :D ♥
♥♥♥ you are so welcome jewel
Thank you for all you give to me too!♥
L♥nda! (i like the heart as my "I" ☺
♥♥♥♥♥
you'd need every letter to become a heart in your name Linda, and even that wouldn't come close to the real thing! they are awesome though heh! :D ♥heart♥
love you, jewel
life is a big, confusing mess, and there are always more questions than answers. stay strong, my friend!
aww neo
much love back at you buddy muah! like I said to Linda, you guys are what make me strong - thank you :D ♥
Oh Jewel
I know what it is like to feel all alone, and trying to figure out why life can be so unfair, and how those feelings can suppress even more around the holidays, to a point you just feel like giving up. Trust me, things will get better, no matter how bad they seem to be. You have friends here you can talk to if you need to, including me, hang in there Jewel.
Thanks Lee
I know you've been there and have come out the other side, thank you - it just helps knowing you're all here, if you know what I mean :D ♥
I can relate to this for sure...
I have been in such a hot mess since last year...
And I have been going in and out of confusion... Just like you.
This a well written and honest piece... Very nice!
Thanks for posting!
Eric
Thank you Eric
I think we've all been in a mess at some time or other, life is the mess we try and avoid - thanks for commenting! :D ♥
~Falling Stars~
Jewel,
This is brilliant writing! You fully expressed feelings that we have all experienced or will experience.
Our tears are the stars. Every star has a story. Constellations of stories, never ending.
Christmas stars are the most popular. There is such an ache to have what is lost. We all have to hold loss; it is built into each one of us. Life is just a twinkling in time.
Your talents and compassion are bigger than your fears. Rest in the comfort of your gifts. Although we are oceans away from each other, I know your heart! You are a remarkable person.
I am so happy you posted this work. You are a beautiful heart and I have really missed your thoughts.
You are a star!
Love,
Kathy
xo
Kathy
Thank you for your comment, you always manage to make me smile with them, it's a gift you have! big hugs :D ♥
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Nothing comes that you can’t handle on your own.
One thing I see you are doing right, walking away your tears of despair, looking for the answers you are writing about it.
Keep writing this is what makes a great Poet.
:)
Chris!!
I haven't heard from you in ages, it's so good to hear from you :D thanks so much for getting it, you've understood what I've been trying to do for weeks in an instant - take care buddy, and keep writing your wonderful poetry :D ♥
Understand
"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much." ~Mother Teresa
Let me explain something very quickly-
There are people in this world who suffer for feeling bad for being good.
then there are others, who suffer for feeling good for being bad.
You're a good person, at the hands of people who may not be as well intentioned as yourself, and its hard to understand why the responsibility to brighten the world feels like your responsibility; but understand, that all things in life are compensated, be they good things done and neglected, or bad things done, and neglected-
its all about the work you do, and the outcome you craft for yourself...
You cant see this now, but the hardest childhoods
build the strongest, wisest, understanding leaders.
You see, you have what is known as a Hypersensitive feelings,
and keen insight- and whilst at the moment it may feel like a burden now,
being able to see everything thats wrong; given time, soon, you'll be able to see all those little things that make things right, you can't see now, most particularly, because your attention is occupied with the negativity.
Its just like why you can't watch two tv screens at once, only one can dominate your attention, and in so far, you've found the bad more ravishing.
And its easy to say, they keep airing the negativity why wouldn't i watch..?
what if i said, they keep airing the good...so,... why aren't you watching?
Your wisdom, comes with time-
just remember what makes this hard for you,
and one day, you'll be the one counseling a person who will be feeling
the same way you feel now, and then you will be the sage, and they the student, as perchance, it may be now for me and you.
you and i may also be friends, strangers, brethren, kin...
but the point is the same, everyday dont be scornful of what you dont see, dont be thankful for what you do see; but, be thankful for just being able to see. You're life is a book of pages, with plenty of props, but the pages are empty, waiting for you to write-
and just like this poem, had you not written your sorrow, you wouldn't be sorrowful to us, if you had written your joy, you woulda been joyful to us.
Sorrowful to yourself, or joyful to yourself; in contrast,
you don't do unto others as you would not have them to unto you.
However, you do for others, what you would do for yourself.
If you know how to treat others right, why dont you treat yourself the same way; respect your needs, and others will follow (and respect them too)
Excuse my length.
I'm sorry raskin, but i feel its apt:
Until I became fine-
"on a wheel I spun,
fibers fed
twinning me,
worsted threads
tighter and tighter
until I became fine."
-raskin.
Reference: A troubled youth
Citation: A troubled youth
ty jill for your insight-
to eternal_optimist.
~What the Heart Knows~
Tiresias,
You have amplified the bitter truth. Your insights will delight troubled heart(s). In truth, we are are like the thread trying to pass through the needle's eye. It is what we stitch together that will define us. Your needlepoint today is as comforting as the words, "Home, Sweet Home". Home is where the heart is. Take comfort in what your heart knows, love answers its call.
It is delightful to know the hearts of our writing community are answering love's call.
Love,
Kathy
Tiresias
Thank you so much for what you've written, I feel like I've learnt more from what you've said in your comment than I have since I was 12! for you to take the time to explain those things to me means such a lot, thank you - I will try and understand :D ♥
Love is my star
so to elaborate a bit, that is my motive, and so, responding in this manner-
is me applying that motto. Forever love, your welcome jewel. One love.
Love is my star
so to elaborate a bit, that is my motive, and so, responding in this manner-
is me applying that motto. Forever love, your welcome jewel. One love.
I'll look out for your star
next time I'm looking out of the window - I'm sure I'll see it shining bright :D ♥
a beautiful poem
Such a beautiful poem.....thank you for sharing......
Thank you for reading
I appreciate you stopping by and commenting! thank you :D ♥