Scars You Can't See
So much fighting
Shouting, swearing,
It happened so often
I went past caring.
I learnt to switch off
Whenever the screams started to erupt,
I learnt how to block it all out
Whenever it got too much.
I still get flashes
Of what I've seen,
The things that happened
After the screams...
Hitting, spitting,
Dodging blows,
Whacking, kicking
Blood soaked throws.
Hate filled insults
Hurled every which way,
Words hurting more than the punches
Leaving scars which stay.
The look you gave him
As you put up with it for the last time,
The hug he gave me
As he took his hand out of mine,
The pain I remember feeling
Every day except that one,
The reason why I didn't look back
Is because even to this day
I'm so glad that you're gone.
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I’m glad too, Jewel.
I hope you’re now at the stage of peace and happiness, and the sky is azure again and the sun is nothing, but a golden egg… :)
With warmth,
Iouri
Ubi vita, ibi poesis!
Iouri
thank you so much, it's like that for my friend, she used to dread every day, but now she looks forward to them-thank you :D ♥
wow
I'm pretty speechless after that; emotive write, Jewel. The invisible scars certainly are the worst ones.
They are
because you always know they're there-but others don't. thank you neo :) ♥
Scars
Jewel, whenever i hear this it always amazes me that someone would stay. But im so glad to hear its finally over for your friend. i guess it would be hard to leave as a kid...
im sure she just had hope everyday that he would someday love her....hope the next day would be brighter...well, now it will be!!
Really descriptive write. Jewel. it makes me cry to think of the pain she must have endured in a little girls mind..
wow
Linda
It's over
though I know she'll never forget it. she grew up with a dad that was violent, to her mum and to herself, then her boyfriend started abusing her and it was like it was happening all over again for her-I couldn't believe it. thank you for reading Linda :) ♥
Man, Jewel
When I first read your previous two post I thought the abuse was coming from a boyfriend, now I see its coming from the father? Abuse is abuse, a terrible wrong regardless, but so much more damage is done when it comes from a family member. The damage he has done she may have to work through the rest of her life. This is such a terrible situation. She is so very lucky to have you in her life, but I think she is also going to need help from a counselor. You know when I said I was looking forward to seeing you post something soon? This is not quite what I had in mind, I want to insert a joke here like I was hoping you seen you neighbor naked again or something else but I just can't get past what I am reading here. I wish both you and her better days ahead, and for what it is worth, this is well written, take care-Lee
Lee
it's both Lee, like I said to Linda, her dad was abusive, then when she thought she'd moved on from all that, she got a boyfriend and he started being violent. I didn't even know her father used to hurt her and her mum, it's only because of the boyfriend business that she told me-I was really shocked, to go through it once is hard enough but twice...she's got loads of help and support now, from me and a domestic abuse counsellor/helper, they help her so much it's unbelievable.
I wish I could write funny stuff (not that I want to see my neighbour naked again, mind you hehe) though at the moment with it all going on, it's like my friend's feelings are mine and I'm writing them, letting them out for her...does that make sense? probably not :P
thank you so much Lee, for your kind words :) ♥
~Abuse is a Cycle~
Jewel,
Domestic violence is more common than people realize. Most murders are committed by a family member.
To break the cycle of abuse, one needs to change the way they react and live. Your friend needs to find a safe place and a great friend. We often become what we experience as a child. No one should ever let a bully in their life.
There are so many children dealing with these types of parents. A child that has been beat up will keep loving their abusive parents. This undeserved love is part of the cycle.
You a a very sensitive person. I am very touched by your range of loving gestures. I know you are a wonderful friend, it oozes out of your writing. You certainly know how to use words!
God bless you,
Kathy
Kathy
Thank you so much for your words, my friend is doing so much better now, she's safe and happier, getting loads of help-which is the main thing....I know she'll pull through it, because she's got so many people there for her. thank you Kathy, a friend is one of the nicest things to be! :D ♥