My mind is spinning
and im running in place
everything out of reach
soon the walls of
this dark prison will over
take an crush
my every chance of finally
ecaping
In this prison Ive ran

i pressed myself against the wall
slowely slidding to the ground
i wrap my arms around my knees
and finally put my head down

sitting against this wall
in the darkest of places

Happy Mothers Day Mom
I know I havent seen you
since I was seven....
but I hope your day
was wonderful....
I hope you got flowers
and that someone gave
you a hug....
Happy Mothers Day Mom

Happy Mothers Day Mom
I know I havent seen you
since I was seven....
but I hope your day
was wonderful....
I hope you got flowers
and that someone gave
you a hug....
Happy Mothers Day Mom

Happy Mothers Day Mom
I know I havent seen you
since I was seven....
but I hope your day
was wonderful....
I hope you got flowers
and that someone gave
you a hug....
Happy Mothers Day Mom

Mother...
yes you gave me life
yet taught me to be afraid
locking me out in the cold
world only to be trampled
on by the men you brought
home....
Mother...
you brought me pain

I stand alone
waiting for you
wondering when
you shall return
for me...
like you promised
so long ago...
I stand alone
fighting for my
freedom...
the foster system
abusing their rights

In and out of my life
never knew when
or how you'd come
back....
visits with you
coming home tears
running down my
face...
telling mommy what
happened that night
showing her the

Some once told me
I was beautiful and that
I was worth far more than
rubies and gold....

Yet someone also said
I was sh*t that I wasn't worth
fighting for....

Someone hurt me

Does it surprise you when I cry
that Im not as strong
as I pretend to be...

Does it surprise you when you see
the scares on my wrists
from the knife I used...

Flames of anger dancing in her eyes
hiding behind the anger is pain of the past
when all she wanted to do is die
and when she had a chance to leave
she was gone so fast

A promise made so long ago
When I was so young
I knew it wasn't going to be kept
Yet I wanted to hope
That maybe just this once
Mommy would come through
Just once she would be there

No matter how hard I try
I never seem good enough for you
I tried hard yet never pleasing you
all i got was a sigh or the roll of the eyes
you always knew how to make me cry...

I'm scared
I'm lost
and no one seems to care
like a ghost
unseen. unheard, unloved
wanting to be set free
which way
how far
losing more everyday
wondering why
wondering where
a hard life

The fighting and yelling, the
scream that echo's over again

It hurts to be able to admit
that, that's all I've grown up around

All I remember is you never being
home, our evening never calm