shaking, unsure, confused; caught in an endless loop
awake, absorbing, falling; unconscious of the truth
doubted, daunted, disabled; vision blurred by lack of breath
watching- fearing instead of acting, wishing only for a quick death
hoping it will come to me before those around me pass
not seeing how i drain them with each sip from the glass
not seeing how our dreams are so intricately entertwined
my intentions distracted, personally miserable- an unrefined temper defined
not seeing through the confusion- fallen, shaking-
too blind to see a day when i will finally awaken
i get up each day to drink and drink each day to sleep
as i immunize myself against the truth within me

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