“We can not have everything we want. Much more we cannot claim anything. Because at one point in time, in the most unexpected moment, the very thing we hold dear will eventually turn out to be meant for somebody else.”
Pain is what measures how much we have given, how much more we can give and how much more we can take. When people left, were hurt. It’s because we love.
You may be hurting and wanting to just be numb, to clear your mind of the vivid memories from the many years you thought would never end.
You may be dying inside. Crying those silent tears. Screaming from the inside. Suffocated from all the wishes and dreams now gone, vanished and taken away from you. Stolen by fate.
You may be feeling so alone. Left out. A soul that will never again find its way back home. A heart that never know how to be whole again. A man torn. A man wounded. A man defeated.
Like an approaching dusk, love had vanished somewhere in the empty corners. All that is left are those shadows, lurking and taunting. Mocking at you.
Tears are not enough to drown the ache. Nothing can. You can get drunk and escape your hell for a while, but there is no running away.
There is no sure exit from a collapsing fortress. Because it is where your heart dwells. You just can’t leave. You can't just shrug off what had happened like it never cuts you each time. You can't just turn your back. You can’t just close your eyes. Though it’s even harder to admit, you just can’t stop loving.
And so it’s crazy,
But it’s human
You feel hurt, you cry
It is fine to mourn and lament over your loss… you have all the right to be bitter. Get mad. Have your time with solitude. Mingle with your pain. Feel it, savor it.
Let reality sink in hard.
But as soon as you are through, be man enough to stand and pick up the broken pieces. The path where you have walked together may have ended, but your road goes on. Your walk is not yet through.
There’s still so much in the world to discover. So much more to learn. So much more to smile about. So much more to love.
She may have held your heart for such a long time that you never know how to keep it back, but then, take it. Claim it again. It’s time to love your self.
Healing doesn’t require having another person to love. Sometimes all you got to do is look in the mirror and value the one in the reflection. Don’t get drowned. Begin kicking. Swim your way out of your misery.
I know it’s easier said than done. I know. For I myself is a wingless dove like you are.
But it’s still wise to crawl your way out of the dungeons of your brokenness… no matter how hard… no matter how painful.
Only when we let go can we get the chance to get hold of another. We cannot grab another moment when we keep a handful of spoiled could-have-been.
And as you go through all this, keep in mind that in God’s time and will your wounds would heal. And soon enough, you’ll finally be looking in the eyes of someone God has lovingly reserved for you…
Save all that love…
She’ll be running your way soon

--sleeping Panda--

--Aiza03--