~ Worthwhile ~

Convincingly, I once portrayed myself as strong. I said I needed no one,
But I deceived myself, for it was not with strength that I drew this conclusion,
but with weakness.

It is the ultimate vulnerability to need something outside yourself,
to need something over which I have no control,
to give someone the power to destroy the trust,
the faith which I have placed in them .

I can not shut out that which has become a part of my existence.
I can not quiet the voice that knows me so well,
So well that it does not even need to speak.

I have to believe in myself, trust myself to risk everything,
Because everything worth having involves risk,
Everything comes at a personal price.

The more I am willing to give of myself, the stronger I become,
Because it is those precious few things,
and those precious few people, that are worth the risk
that make this sacrifice, this price, this life
worthwhile.