when God chose to cross our path's,
i was sitting, drowning my sorrow.
at the place i'd been the night before
and likely would be the morrow.

i was mourning for a lost lover,
one whose regards i'd never had.
i realize now he was an addiction
for whose riddance i am glad.

his carnal attributes blinded me
from what little he had to give,
you assisted in the illumination
revealing; it's not how i wanted to live!

had you not caught my attention
and preoccupied me for a while,
i'd never have known your decency
or felt the warmth from your smile.

i grasped for you as a life preserver
to keep me from drowning in my tears,
i can only hope you'll be around
when i find my happy years.

it must be clear to you that i'm broken
but yearn to make the pieces whole.
i feel that slowly happening, please know:
you're good for my heart and soul!

i've shared with you my anguish,
used you as a sounding board,
as my friend, please know you're cherished
and as a man you are adored!

you personify perfection
i tell you that time after time.
when i am ready for a companion
your qualifications are prime!

yes, i came on way too strong,
the way that i always do.
i am working on making changes
stay tuned for the "new cindy debut"!