my two thousand and eight
was a peculiar year;
full of tribulation
exposures and despair.

an out-of-body experience
transposed me into a stranger;
leading a disorderly life

i don't need a relationship
to make me feel whole,
first and foremost what i want,
is to get my life under control.

i must deal with my marriage;
bring that chapter to a close;

searching for my true love,
feels like an elusive dream;
sifting through those i'm attracted
who are never what they seem.

the strapping guy with comely eyes
reels me in from across the bar.

Go Ahead and Judge Me

I'm told I created drama
making people think I was crazy,
which is probably true
but to me it's still hazy.

It must have begun
when life as I knew it ended,

when i lowered the pedestal
i set you on, so high;
i finally saw the real you,
not the figment in my eye!

i had raised you to a level
that was just out of sight,

so I talked to angi
and she told me straight out:
"You can be overbearing,
with out a doubt!"

she did preface it with;
"you know I love you, but..."
hearing it from her

I want to apologize for Saturday
when I was fall down drunk,
once again I saw
how my morals have sunk!

When I saw you at the door,
I was glad you were there,
and what a coincidence,

i want you to be my "costco";
where i get it all in one place.
companion,confidant,buddy-
and yes; the ultimate embrace.

convenience store shopping
is not for me.
you are the only one;

i've been known to act silly, crazy and aloof;
slightly certifiable; yet there's no iron clad proof!

wandering thru life, in my own little world;

like the pendulum swings
from left to right,
my character swayed
dark to light.

never hanging level,
in the center or plumb;
pivoting right to over-confident

it's a different friendship
with you and I;
like no other I'll have
before I die!

what started out
in the usual way;
got more intense
with each passing day.

it began with softball

it was a crazy-ass time
I was going through;
please let me apologize
for including you!

my life seemed gloomy,
I had thought of switching my "team".
then I over came anxiety

when God chose to cross our path's,
i was sitting, drowning my sorrow.
at the place i'd been the night before
and likely would be the morrow.

i was mourning for a lost lover,

"M i s t e r Conn-olly"!! anounced Bob
on that first night we met.
Then I introduced myself,
and told you I work for a Vet."

When I stated which hospital
you rattled off; "0045"!!

the past couple of months
I have been revisiting my youth.
it has been enjoyable,
that's the god's honest truth.

my teens and early twenties
were really quite mild.