recently i asked you;
are we just F.B's?
"never thought about it" you said,
when i explained what it means.

says the guy with a cute smile,
wearing soft guess jeans;

the time has come
to start my new life;
married 22 years
now no longer a wife.

it was "cindy & joe"
for twenty-nine years;
knowing happiness and joy
sorrow and tears.

from teen to adult

consumed by issues
and relentless pain;
unable to suppress,
what traveled my vein.

finally it happened,
i found an old friend;
night after night
they helped me to mend.

Life was good just not right;
on my platform in the sky.
Knowing something was amiss;
I began to question; "WHY??"

When the answers finally came
the pieces now made sense.

my hero!

despite being breezy
and down right cold,
across to the reservoir
the four of us strolled.

to get some fresh air
and exercise too,
then back to the house

my two thousand and eight
was a peculiar year;
full of tribulation
exposures and despair.

an out-of-body experience
transposed me into a stranger;
leading a disorderly life

i don't need a relationship
to make me feel whole,
first and foremost what i want,
is to get my life under control.

i must deal with my marriage;
bring that chapter to a close;

searching for my true love,
feels like an elusive dream;
sifting through those i'm attracted
who are never what they seem.

the strapping guy with comely eyes
reels me in from across the bar.

Go Ahead and Judge Me

I'm told I created drama
making people think I was crazy,
which is probably true
but to me it's still hazy.

It must have begun
when life as I knew it ended,

when i lowered the pedestal
i set you on, so high;
i finally saw the real you,
not the figment in my eye!

i had raised you to a level
that was just out of sight,

so I talked to angi
and she told me straight out:
"You can be overbearing,
with out a doubt!"

she did preface it with;
"you know I love you, but..."
hearing it from her

I want to apologize for Saturday
when I was fall down drunk,
once again I saw
how my morals have sunk!

When I saw you at the door,
I was glad you were there,
and what a coincidence,

i want you to be my "costco";
where i get it all in one place.
companion,confidant,buddy-
and yes; the ultimate embrace.

convenience store shopping
is not for me.
you are the only one;

i've been known to act silly, crazy and aloof;
slightly certifiable; yet there's no iron clad proof!

wandering thru life, in my own little world;

like the pendulum swings
from left to right,
my character swayed
dark to light.

never hanging level,
in the center or plumb;
pivoting right to over-confident