Don’t knock it before you try it, and I have to agree
If they say it’s bad for you its probably just jealousy
The taste still lingering, I love the first momentary high
Sit back and enjoy the rush, watch the smoke fly
Everything is so clear now, how can you condemn this away
Swirling and floating in peace, in time with the music I sway
Follow the rhythm, in your heart your aching to join in
Of course something this pleasurable must be reviled to sin

A rainbow of feeling, ride it to the ominous moon
This could never end and it wouldn’t end a moment too soon
You call me a junkie, but it’s to the journey I’m addicted
I can show you places, places you’ll never be conflicted
Why, it’s all so simple now. How could I not see it before
I’m sitting still, watching in wait for a new journeys door
Pull me closer, so I can listen to your hammering heart
It’s your eyes that get me every time, they just tear me apart

You don’t understand me, I get this. Nobody could.
I’m one of kind, but this is not always so good
Pushed to the side, I can only let my imagination run free
You ask who I am, but I’m not who you want me to be
A girl with a dream beyond the limits of the box you give
Chained to the floor by too many emotions to let live
Everything I find as a relief is something not allowed
Now you get me started, and I ache to float into my cloud

If I was to let go, finally be released, who would understand
My reality sliced into shreds by my own bloody hand
The grief is overwhelming for something so far in the past
Even if happiness graces me, how long could it last
Different from all of them, even different from what is me
All I want is to finally know what is destined to be my reality
Fate is a cruel and wicked thing, I learned this long ago
But acceptance as it comes has so far refused to show

Continually denied the inexplicable lessons of truth
I have to rely on what is so disapproved of, my youth
Slipping back into fantasy, remembering still I’m high
Off of the pretense of your precision, and the realism of your lie
Wondering all along how much of this I could take
Exploring the boundaries of what I know can make me break
Stuck following the rhythm of your unseen but all too lovable heart
Questioning if you’re real, and how long it takes me to fall apart

© E.M. May 7, 2008