I don't know why???
the pain in my heart grows every day.

Im in love.......................
but this love is know happy love.
this love is the type of love that eats at your flesh until you are know more. It swallows you whole and tells you thats it"all for you".

I wanna run!
curl into a ball, and rock myself to sleep.
Maybe I can hide from this.
Maybe I can go somewhere so far that it'll take 4 trips around the world to find me,
but i know i can't .

LOVE!!!!!
This love is disgusting.
I hate this love, and it seems to hate me too.
A morbid part of my life.

And who?
who is this person I love so much? I know in my heart it's not a pretty love. This person is close, but not close enough. There, but yet still so far.
The idea of him is too great for words- but the face........
it's BLANK.

oh dear god, how I hate love!