You never gave me any reasons;
never even told me why.
Just said that you were sorry
that you had made me cry.

You didn't explain your logic;
didn't let me know.
Just said that it was in the past now
and told me our love would grow.

I thought we could put it behind us;
thought we could start anew.
So we went back to the beginning,
but the trust just never re-grew.

My sorrow and hurt turned to resent;
the pain of betrayal held me lame.
You wouldn't discuss the affair;
wouldn't even tell me her name.

I had to know certain things
to get this straight in my head.
Could it be my own fault
that you took another into bed?

I can't live with unanswered questions
Tell me, please make me understand.
Did you love her madly?
or was she just a one night stand?

I don't know which one is worse;
though I really must have the truth,
It's not the actions that burns me
but more the lies that I find uncouth.

Is she pretty is she young?
Is she tall, short, fat or thin?
Have you told her your hopes?
Does she know your soul within?

Have you taken her to places
that we once went together?
Have you told her you love her
or said you'll be hers forever?
Is she good in bed?
Does she float your boat?
Does she know about me?
Does she have cause to gloat?

Oh I have scrutinized myself,
torn my psyche inside out,
scratched at my insecurity
and played Russian roulette with my doubt.

But nothing brings me solace
nothing dulls this ache in my heart.
I just want to know the whole truth
but where in the world do I start?

My mind is in turmoil;
I feel like I am going insane.
I can't rationalise my emotions;
everything is muddled in my brain.

The pain is excruciating,
my heart is ripped in two
and my very soul stripped bare
I can't even look at you.

STOP! Don't touch me,
Don't presume to invade my space
every ounce of prowess you had,
has disappeared without a trace.

I loved you with everything I had,
gave you my entire universe.
But you took it all for granted
now is this for better or for worse?

The words you said were empty,
our marriage vows now broken,
we have nothing left but memories,
because the truth will remain unspoken.