The memories haunt my dreams
As they fade to nightmares.
*~*
My friends tell me
My eyes have lost their light
That my smile doesn’t reach my eyes
Not quite.

My words are still there
But they’ve lost their power
They the elevator of my happiness
Has fallen down the tower.

I want to tell them
I want to let them know
But if I say, if I tell
My anger will lash out and show.

I never wanted this to happen
Neither do I want it again
But it’s no longer simple
We’re no longer ten.

I pray each night to God
I pray each night for a way
I just don’t know what they’ll do
I just don’t know what they’ll say.

They can see through my shield
Through the fakeness of my smile
But I just keep saying that if they want to know
They’ll have to wait for a long while.

I want to tell them
I want to let them know
But if I say, if I tell
My anger will lash out and show.

I never wanted this to happen
Neither do I want it again
But it’s no longer simple
‘Cause we’re no longer ten.

Wish as I might
I’ll never know the way
I’ll never know how to tell
I’ll never know how to say…
…I just don’t know.