Incredible solitude
You hurt so much
I never knew him well
But now he’s gone

I feel like crying
Laughing, screaming, jumping
You are a funny one sadness
So much like madness

Ugh,
I hate this feeling
I really do
Does he really like me?
Or am I being used?

I feel stupid because of this
Vulnerable and out of reach

Blame the darkness for this silence
It’s not the way you speak about me
It’s not the things you did to me
It’s all about the silent darkness

And when I cry and can’t keep it quiet

I went because I loved
The sound they came up with
But the rest that I went with
Were falling for the band
The cover band, that is

And they believed they conquered them

I’m new
I’m new
I knew it all along

I’m changed
I’m glad I am
Now’s time to let it all pass

I can’t
Keep on pretending
That I’m the same
I was before

I’m new

There is this light hanging from the ceiling
And it caresses me all night

It keeps the sun inside my room
When outside only shines the weary moon

There is this light standing on my table

Strength is when you let it all pour down
Strength is when you cry your eyes out
When you let the world know how you feel
When you know you’re strong even when you’re on your knees

Come and break the stillness in me
For I have never felt a storm in my sea
My waters rest in solitude
And this, my stillness, needs only you
To move the currents that lie below
And point the way to my warm flow

I was playing with mirrors and then I saw myself
I saw everything there was inside me
The storms, the clearings,
The noise and the silence

Busy roads to nowhere
That’s what I first noticed

“I’ll love you forever,
Even when you’re gone”
That was my promise
And I’ve kept it on

I’ll love you forever,
And I’ll kiss you every night

I’m tracing shapes with my hands
And seeing double
I know I’ll get in trouble
If I miss a step
Or grab a sharp end

That day,
I was counting corners in my head
From one through ten

We were so close
We needed space to grow
And then they came
Talking about our hate

I thought we were all the same
But then I saw our differences

Some sang:
“Bring the knives,

Sand in my shoes
And I can’t walk to you
I don’t want to move
I’d rather stay here
Where there’s no pain for me

There’s the sun on my face
And I can’t find your eyes

Vapor trails,
Paper trains
I wish I could sail away

On saggy boats
With cardboard doors
Why can’t I just fly above?

This empty jar
These broken bars
It’s all tearing me apart

Twisted face is in the mirror
Torned emotions in my eyes
Is hard to make believe
That I’m fine in spite of sadness
And I can live like this forever
Cause there’s nothing wrong with me